Leaning on the Rock

This past weekend ABS went white water kayaking. This is my absolute favourite thing that we do, and what I have the most fun doing. It’s scary though, being closed into your kayak that is not very stable, and going down fast water rapids, and trying to remember the techniques to keep you somewhat balanced.
Switching gears here a bit, I’ve been thinking a lot about going home in two weeks, and how much I am going to miss it here in New Zealand, being in the Christian community that I’ve been blessed with, and how people aren’t going to fully understand all the things I’ve learned, or what I’ve been through. I have nothing planned for when I get back, which is fine with me, I know it’s where God wants me right now, but the thought scares me that I’m not going to be in the same community like I have been. I’m not going to have people around me 24/7, and there will be internet, TV, radio and other things to distract me easier...whereas the last 6 months I have had barely any of that, so I am a lot more motivated to be in the word or talk to God and it’s amazing how much closer I have come with him, and how much easier it is to hear his voice.
I asked God to prepare me for going home, and that’s what he has done! The other night I had a dream about it, and the day I got back I had to go to work straight away. I had a few hours with friends, but I also had a 2-close shift I had to work the same day I flew in. I was running a little late to work, so I tried to take short cuts to get there faster, the ones I would normally take. But so much had changed, and there was road construction EVERYWHERE, and roads blocked that I didn’t know how I was going to get there on time. My boss was texting me wondering where I was, as well as everyone else needing me in some way. When I woke up I felt so overwhelmed. I’m not sure, but I feel as though this could be how it is when I get home. There’s going to be road blocks and things trying to keep me from God, or God maybe putting road blocks in my life to show me a different way of living for him. I’m not sure exactly what it meant, but it has had me praying and thinking a lot.
BUT, like white water kayaking, when the rapids are really rough, I was taught about eddy’s which are little safe spots behind rocks that is calm water, if you can see them and catch them, it’s a great place to relax or wait for the rest of the group. Also, if the rapids are to strong and there are rocks, it’s important to lean on the rock, not away from it. God has made it clear that he will never leave me or forsake me. That he is a solid rock I can lean on, an eddy in all the chaos that will protect me and keep me safe. I still have to face those rapids, but he’ll be there to lean on.